Friday January 29.... I sit alone at a Gelato Bar & Espresso Caffee sipping on warm earl grey tea, reflecting on a empowering yoga class, and looking out the window watching others enjoying the sunlight and one another's company.
In these moments of life I can not help but ponder deeply about my own , and realize how grateful I am to be soaking in these breathes of life. Being away from Utah and living on my own in an unfamiliar city, has taught me to OPEN my eyes. I had every luxury possible at home, I had the greatest friends on this plant, that could never and will never be replaced. I had a supportive family, who provided more than I could ask for. I had the best dance training and facility, offering me endless possibilities. I even had a boyfriend that has always been there for me. I had my life set and it all would have worked out and I would have been happy settling there. But that is the thing, I would be settling. I wanted more, I wanted an adventure, I wanted a change, I wanted to feel uncomfortable and scared. I also realize that I say I I I I... and maybe its selfish, But for once I am thinking only about myself. This is my chance to live my life the way I want to. I came here with not knowing what to do when I wake up, in fact what to do all day. I was a lost puppy, with one intention and that was to be independent and start living. Everyday I am here it is a challenge and it does get hard and I am constantly dealing with the next trial God presents to me. But at the end of the day that it takes all of bad to make the good, without all this I wouldn't be truly living. Testing your strength only makes you stronger, I know that I made the right decision moving out here and I know that I am growing because of it everyday. I am happy with the person I am becoming and loving learning about myself and seeing what I am capable of doing.